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Here we all are. What we signed up for. The Shift, the Awakening, the Great Reveal, the Ascension…..whatever label we put on it, it is one of humanity’s key moments. This will be a long post, so I am going to post in in parts. I hope you stay until the end.

Part One: For the thousand ways I imagined this time, I never came close to capturing how it is unfolding. Because I couldn’t imagine what I didn’t know. For the past few years I’ve gotten hundreds if not thousands of posts, emails, sub stacks, etc. about how the frequency is increasing, we’re already in 5D, we’re ascending, etc. - and I couldn’t feel it. Not only couldn’t I feel it, I felt like I was regressing into behaviors that were childish, narcissistic, reactive, unconscious…for someone who makes their living teaching how to move through this, I was embarrassed and ashamed that I seemed to be reverting to old patterns and behaviors.

I’m going to talk about Grief first. Anger comes second, and it may be the most important emotion at play right now. The purpose of Grief is to let go, to make space for something new. Grief is ESSENTIAL to change. If we don’t grieve, we cannot truly let go or create space for the new. Yet I only know a few Grief Buddhas as I call them - people who can easily drop into their grief and stay with it until completion. Most of us (myself included at times) can tap into our grief when it overwhelms us, but we often try to rush through it and "get back to feeling normal.” When we exit grief too soon or don’t go deep enough, we set an emotional bookmark that will then magnetically attract something that will trigger our grief again. The longer we go without fully experiencing our grief, the greater the triggers become until we find ourselves drowning in grief.

As important as it is to grieve the things we’ve lost, we must also grieve the things we never had. Grieving for something you’ve never had actually opens up a channel to that thing and the act of grieving allows that thing had an opportunity to move towards you.

The world as we have known it is no more. Regardless of how we look at it, we’ve moved beyond what we always believed was true, and into a chaotic state of potential. This is the first phase of ascension - old systems collapse, beliefs fracture, and confidence in our convictions begins to waver. This breakdown requires grieving. If we do not grieve the loss of the life we thought we were going to have, that emotion will move to fear. Fears’ purpose is to tell us we are in danger, or don’t have enough information to move forward safely. As we don’t know what the future will bring, fear is a natural place to land. But the combined force of unexpressed grief and fear can bring us to overwhelm, or it can lead to acting out with immature anger. Immature anger is always angry, always needs to be right, and that means someone else has to be wrong. Not only is this a dangerous state to be in, it will not lead to ascension. It won’t even lead to temporary satisfaction.

The best way to unearth your grief is to write. You can start by writing about anger. “My anger says…….” will bring up what is on the surface. As you keep adding more sentences of what your anger is saying, at some point you’ll get to the grief underneath it. No matter how childish or silly your grief might feel, (My grief says…..nobody likes me…..nobody really knows me…..I have never had a great love affair…….” keep writing. At some point your body will trigger itself into releasing that grief. It isn’t always crying. It can be the fetal position sucking your thumb. Don’t judge, just let your body guide you.

How do we know when we are done grieving? Well, we are never done - all change is preceded by grief. Grief is a natural part of HOW WE WERE DESIGNED AS HUMANS! Grief is an expression of love. What I loved died and I grieve. What I loved changed, and I grieve. What I longed for is no more, and I grieve. What I believed turned out to untrue, and I grieve. You can see that grieving is a fluid, living part of our journey.

When, however, you have finished grieving about something specific, you will know because optimism and excitement begin to fill your belly. It can be a really small feeling at first - almost like a gas bubble deep inside - and as time goes on you will begin to recognize that bubble for what it is - potential is opening a wormhole to you. And this is where our Anger can step forward as a true Warrior energy - one that protects but also stands grounded in integrity and truth.

BTW, repressed grief can look like respiratory disease.

To be continued….

Sunrise on Cenote Bruja. Perfect peace.